Oh I can understand that, I just can't personally do that, to be honest, I have barely drawn anything personal when I have been able to draw in about a year because I have outstanding trades that I haven't finished yet because of serious medical issues (I'm only able to work on them here and there for short periods). Admittedly I have kept the other parties informed and they've not sent me their half and won't until my half of the trade is finished but I still feel so guilty about it that I can't even doodle currently.